Lately i'm feeling like there's a wall between us. A wall that wont let me greet you like i used to , and you greet me like you used to. A wall that separated us apart. 

I dont wanna tell him , i dont wanna him to know. That my love for him cant seem to let go. I dont want want him to know how i long to feel his touch , to have him to hold me , i still feel that love when i look in his eyes. It still takes my breath away when i see him smile. I lie awake at night in my bed , thingking what happened , our love was so strong. I dont understand it , what the hell went wrong..

Now i sit here alone , i just cant do it , i dont have the strength.. Now it hurts to be near him , it hurts to see his face , my heart breaks everytime i hear him laugh.. Everything reminds me of him , i cant get away..

I just want all of thi hurting and pain to leave. My heart is beating faster , all my blood is rushing , its getting harder to breathe.. I wish i didnt love him.. I wish i didnt care..

I've always wanted to talk to you , eyes to eyes , heart to heart.. but the timing was never right..

And well.. tonight.. you greet me , you dont know how excited i am ? hahah silly , its like , my heart beating so fast and so happy.. i think we'll gonna figure this out tonight , i wish it just like a fight we're having..

Tomorrow it'll be like it has never happened , right ?

But i wrong.. big wrong.. feels like i was falling from the sky..

You've said goodbye and wanna end all of this..

pathetic for me..

Dear , i was waiting for you in one year , and you just throw me away like this ?!

Is that all you got ?? 

You with your words like knife , swords and weapons that you use againts me , you have knocked me off my feet again , got me feeling like i'm nothing.. Nothing for you..

All i'm trying to say all this..

I miss you

I miss going out with you

I miss talk with you

I miss sharing everything that has happened in our life

I miss being in the same debate with you

I miss the way we share stories from the secret ones until the unimportant ones

I miss the way you looked at me and smile

I miss having funny-fight with you

I miss the way you told me "GOODNIGHT" in every single night..

I just simply miss the old you dear , i miss you

take care , i love you