Lately i'm feeling like there's a wall between us. A wall that wont let me greet you like i used to , and you greet me like you used to. A wall that separated us apart. 

I dont wanna tell him , i dont wanna him to know. That my love for him cant seem to let go. I dont want want him to know how i long to feel his touch , to have him to hold me , i still feel that love when i look in his eyes. It still takes my breath away when i see him smile. I lie awake at night in my bed , thingking what happened , our love was so strong. I dont understand it , what the hell went wrong..

Now i sit here alone , i just cant do it , i dont have the strength.. Now it hurts to be near him , it hurts to see his face , my heart breaks everytime i hear him laugh.. Everything reminds me of him , i cant get away..

I just want all of thi hurting and pain to leave. My heart is beating faster , all my blood is rushing , its getting harder to breathe.. I wish i didnt love him.. I wish i didnt care..

I've always wanted to talk to you , eyes to eyes , heart to heart.. but the timing was never right..

And well.. tonight.. you greet me , you dont know how excited i am ? hahah silly , its like , my heart beating so fast and so happy.. i think we'll gonna figure this out tonight , i wish it just like a fight we're having..

Tomorrow it'll be like it has never happened , right ?

But i wrong.. big wrong.. feels like i was falling from the sky..

You've said goodbye and wanna end all of this..

pathetic for me..

Dear , i was waiting for you in one year , and you just throw me away like this ?!

Is that all you got ?? 

You with your words like knife , swords and weapons that you use againts me , you have knocked me off my feet again , got me feeling like i'm nothing.. Nothing for you..

All i'm trying to say all this..

I miss you

I miss going out with you

I miss talk with you

I miss sharing everything that has happened in our life

I miss being in the same debate with you

I miss the way we share stories from the secret ones until the unimportant ones

I miss the way you looked at me and smile

I miss having funny-fight with you

I miss the way you told me "GOODNIGHT" in every single night..

I just simply miss the old you dear , i miss you

take care , i love you

KKL bangka

we followed the lecture program during 5 days in bangka. 22nd febuary-26th febuary

 it was such a great experience. this is the first time i've go by myself without mom and dad :p

DAY 1

We left palembang at seven. And arrived at bangka on eleven. We've luch and visited soekarno's house and soekarno's car. That was awesome. But we were very tired because of climbed the hill , uuhh

Then we arrived at hotel jati pesona on 7:30pm.. and take some rest :)

( waiting for the ship's departure)

(@ waiting room)

(on a boat to bangka. we were so excited!)

(Ryan took this picture , aarrgh)

 (our bus)

 (lunch)

 (yeahh. arrived at bangka. leli , me , cece , dhea , arin , rere , maria)

 (@mosque)

 (visited the soekarno's house)

(@soekarno's house)

(we're gonna climb the hill to visit soekarno's car)

 (tried and tried , it was the process haha)

(ohh look at us! messed up. screwed up. haha exhausted)

 (well finally we reached the top of the hill. Fuhh)

 (so tired but have fuunnnnnnn)

 (it where soekarno was exiled)

 (cool.this is soekarno's car)

 (what a beuatiful views from the top of the hill.

our fatigue paid off with great views)

DAY 2

We visited the pagoda an then bought some souvenirs , and the last we visited pasir padi beach.. but it was raining , so we just stuck in the bus.. not for me and tantri , we could not resist getting off the bus haha we wasn't afraid of rain. Beaaachhhh!!!!

 (pagoda)

 (we didnt climb up to the pagoda. so we're just karoke on bus)

 (its me and tantri , we're getting off the bus didnt care of the rain

too excited of the beach aaaa haha raining in beach)

(fathan and harta encouraged me to fall on a beach

and i was soaking wet , well i didnt bring another clothes)

DAY 3

We visited 3 beachs , what a wonderful day for me hahaha (tikus beach , parai beach , matras beach)

 (@tikus beach)

 (cece , maria , rio , quin , imam , me , tantri)

(rio , leli , rere , nancy , harta , ryan , dida , imam , me)

(with harta)

 (layo plus bukit)

(welcome to parai)

 (with dendy)

 (wet !) 

 (played sand)

(we made it)

 (manda and me)

(tantri andme)

DAY 4

We didnt go anywhere. because this is the lasr day. We're just made some games and camp fire. The most memorable night :)

(we made the games on the beach near the hotel)

(me and leli join in the games. balloon-dance haha)

(hahaha rere and epyu in love <3 )

(soaking wet again. they push me to the beach. aarghh)

okay camp fire night ..

well then the last event closed by handshake :)

DAY 5

 (the last sunrise i saw in the morning when we're breakfast)

(look at my foot. oh my , burned!)

(go home.. huhu)