LONG GONE and MOVED ON

When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin
It's too much to take 
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in 

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah 

From this moment on 
It's time to get a real

Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone 
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring off the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with her
And its not me that you're with

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on 
It's time to get a real
Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone 
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back
No , Cause I got no business knowing where you're at
No , And its gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And its gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real

I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone 
But I still don't know where to start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

But you're long gone, you moved on

-the script-

A Journey to Remember

I was born in this beuatifull (messy) world on Saturday , 19th of October 1991 in the morning. I was starting take a breath in "bunda hospital"
I was born with name Prasti Hardita , a second child from my wise mommy , my funny daddy , and a little sister for my grumpy sister..


When i was 3 , Life was easier. I was just sitting  in front of the television and watched doraemon with my milk.


When i was 5 , Life was excited. This is the first time how i met my first friends in kindergarden. I've learned drawing and talked to my friends.


When i was 6 , Life was "starting studied". This is all the things begin. I've learned how to write , how to read , how to count , how to spell my name and how do i know the alphabet A to Z.


When i was 8 , Life was fun. This is the first time i fell in love with someone in my class. haha.
People's called it "monkey love" . Haha cinta monyet. Weird huh ?
I fell in love with someone who has oriental face , white skin , cute hair and funny laugh.. Just called him "A".
And in this year , i got my first 3 bestfriend. And i got my favorite teacher. How proud i am when she told me this "Your english was great than all the students in this class! You got a best score in english lesson!"
Well since then , i was happy and love english lesson untill now haha


When i was 11 , Life was starting good. I was happily playing with my friends. I have crush with someone else. Yes another monkey love! hahaa


When i was 12 , Life was nice. I was school in my junior high because most of my friends went there. Yeah i got another bestfriends and another boyfriend. Everything's seems so cool. I thought i was a teenager.


When i was 15 , Life was complicated. I was going to "dad's choice" senior high. I have no friends in this school. It was difficult to me to adaptated with new circumstance. I realized i met my new bestfriend. They are Niya Volter Setia , Noi Aswari , Tri surya Lusandri , Adventus Daniel Hamonangan , and Stefanus Apridita Pramudya. Then i met another boy which i really loved once.


When i was 17 , Life was amazing. I feel blessed. I had amazing friends ever , the boy that i really love , and my greatest parents and my senior high school was really AWESOME. This is i felt everything was amazing and i love my life so much more. Without them , i was nothing. Thanks God! God is Good.


When i was 18. Life was unfair!!!!! I wanted padjajaran university and i've already accepted in that university. My mom didnt let me. So i was going to "her choice" University ! a damn university!!!!!


When i was 19. Life was REAL. I want everything and i am too selfish.
Unfortunately , You will not have everything in a real life , moron.
I am in arhitecture now. my mom's choice. I dont belong here. I should be there , staying in Bandung :(
She just made me lost something in my life. MY DREAM.


However , this is real life.


Maybe this is a reason for me to go out from my selfish.
Maybe this is a reason for me to moving on and thingking bout my future.
Maybe this is a reason for me to be a person who is standing strong and never give up to reach my dream. And will have everything like i was always thought before.


Life must go on. Classic but so true
Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than i have for my self.
Because God gives you what you need not what you want in his own way.
i believe in GOD.


Stop being so paranoid , everything happens in your life has its own purpose in a beautiful way  ; )


Then , think about yourself and your future , reach your dream as possible as you can!
This is Life. LIKE THIS JOURNEY NEVER ENDS. GOD HAS A BIGGER PLAN FOR YOU : )



We're Done ?

Things end. And (maybe , perhaps) we're BUSY. We're in weird BUSINESS.
We dont have much time to talk , do we ? i mean YOU not me. You dont have a time just to talk with me.

Feels like you never thought me after all this time. Well i realized im not your girlfriend.
You just said that i was special. But we both know , we dont have a status.
If you choose to stay away from me for a little while , i understand and i appreciate that

If you have another direction , well hemm i will receive it :)


Fix You -Coldplay-
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cant replace
When you love someone but it goes waste
Could it be worse ?