NO ONE

Well , tonight i cried. all over again.

Silly. Everybody knows i hate crying. But it just happened.

I cant hold on. Somebody help me to through all this please.

(No. No one will help you moron)

Realized something you cant changed. 

Regret of something was hurt than i've ever thought before.

Tonight i will share all the things in my head. Because i have no one to tell.

No one wanna hear all my stories. So damn sad. Yeah i have NO ONE.

I'm down. all over again. Feels like a useless-person in this world.

I did everything. I was just hoping. I got nothing.

Feels like i was a LOOSER. i knew i screwed up. messed up.

hell-o DITA.

Is that all you got ??!! You spoiled , narcissistic bitch pathetic looser!

I said i want see them happy but i never did something make them happy

I asked them to give me what i want , but whats i gave them after all this time ?

I asked them to understand me , but i could never understand their feelings

Actually , i really need someone to talk to. But i have no one now.

No one who wants to talking with me just to hear my deepest inquisitisions

No one who will hear my stupid cry and wipe my tears

No one could give me a shoulder when i was crying

No one who will standing beside me and tell me that "you can do it"

No one who will give me just a hug and says "everything's gonna be alright"

No one who will trying to pick me up when i was down

No one who have enough time just for calm me down

No one care. No one hear me. NO ONE.

I'm not blaming anyone. I blame it on my self.

I'm not saying that my friends are cruel. No , they're nice and i love them.

But i knew , we all have problem , i dont wanna looks like  i was the only person who had trouble in my life.

Yeah i need him.

Okay. Tonight i realized. No one will catch you when you fall.

Its time to get a real and stand up for yourself.

Because your life is in your hand. Not in their hand.

When you feel no one will pick you up when you down , remember this

"When you are shining , some people will love you greatly , some will hate you greatly. When you are falling down and no one will cheers you up , stay strong anyway! Let them know that they cant bring you down , and you dont give a damn for what they've said. Because Your life is totally YOURS! Show them what you're worth.. Get up , wake up and stand up!!!! "

(that quote is totally from my heart tonight)